I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
That i almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you
That i almost believe that the pictures are
All i can feel

Remembering
You standing quiet in the rain
As i ran to your heart to be near
And we kissed as the sky fell in
Holding you close
How i always held close in your fear
Remembering
You running soft through the night
You were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow
And screamed at the make-believe
Screamed at the sky
And you finally found all your courage
To let it all go

Remembering
You fallen into my arms
Crying for the death of your heart
You were stone white
So delicate
Lost in the cold
You were always so lost in the dark
Remembering
You how you used to be
Slow drowned
You were angels
So much more than everything
Hold for the last time then slip away quietly
Open my eyes
But i never see anything

If only i'd thought of the right words
I could have held on to your heart
If only i'd thought of the right words
I wouldn't be breaking apart
All my pictures of you

Looking so long at these pictures of you
But i never hold on to your heart
Looking so long for the words to be true
But always just breaking apart
My pictures of you

There was nothing in the world
That i ever wanted more
Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world
That i ever wanted more
Than to never feel the breaking apart
All my pictures of you

This is one of a few all time favorite songs. Yes, it is The Cure, but Robert Smith has a talent for writing beautiful songs. Whenever I hear it, I smile, and think of my favorite pictures in my head. I have been melancholy lately. I was trying to explain it to my mom. This time it started over a picture of a friend of mine, who I have not seen in 16 years. We talked on the phone, and we wrote to each other all the time. After I had Natalie, that stopped. It was not until last year that we were back in contact. He has changed, and of course I have changed. Our friendship also changed. It is almost like now he is an acquaintance. I hate that. It is depressing to think of all the friends that I have made in my life are not really there anymore. I hope and pray that the friends that I have now will not end up this way. I wish for them to be life long friends, sisters and brothers.

It is Sunday...and I am at home

Well, let me put everything out on the table. Yes, we are moving to Tampa, Florida. Do we have the orders yet? No...but they are on the way. David's report date is November 1, so that means I have a little over 2 months to lose my sanity, and pack. I am so happy that we are moving, but I am a little sad. Jonathon and Chloe are super excited. Natalie is feeling a little like I am. She does not want to leave her friends. Being a government brat myself, I know how it feels. But I still have to face forward and be upbeat about it for her. David has worked so hard on this, and I am so happy that he was #1!! But I think that he may be just a little bit frazzled. He has basically been TDY for 8 months, going back and fourth everywhere. He actually has leave this week, which he is so happy about. So that means the beach this week, and cleaning out the garage. What fun, I just have to remember to bring the camera with me.

Toodles for now.

The Meesa Challenge

I was tagged by Monica for this one...

3 Joys

My Family, they are everything to me.

I love it when all of us are home together, we will all snuggle on the couch and watch a quiet family movie together.

Ike and Sadie, my kitties who love me more then David (lol, he is a kitty hog)

3 Fears

seeing my family hurt (or worse)

not being there when my parents need me the most.

not having a home for my family.


3 Goals

Making sure that my kids have the best life.

losing about 50 pounds.

Graduating from college.

Current Obsessions

Finishing the Twilight series, if Natalie will stop telling me about it. Cards..I have 5 boxes that I need to complete. Oh, of course cleaning my house and getting rid of stuff that we do not need.

Random facts that you may not know about me...

I love Rock music...I say that because David's Col told me that he did not think of me as a rocker. Do I look that innocent? Also, I love to sing. Not much in public, but in my home. I still will grab a hairbrush and use it as a microphone.

So I tag.....
Nicole S., my mom, and my other mom

So here’s a fun game I stole from my friend Nicole's blog…. leave a comment on my blog of a memory that you and I have had together. It doesn’t matter if we haven’t known each other for long, just anything you remember! Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. Its actually pretty funny. If you post I’ll assume you’re playing and come to your blog and leave a memory!! On your mark… get set…. blog your memories!!

So yesterday was Natalie's 12th Birthday. So the first thing that she wants to do is cut her hair. Then we went to pick up the reds and headed out to the "dollar" theatre to watch Nim's Island. It was a very cute movie. By that time, it is 2pm, so we went to Red Robin where we stuffed our faces. I had the staff all come over to sing to Natalie. She keeps telling me that she is going to get me back. She has no idea that I am the master of embarrassment. So after that, we went window shopping and then headed home. I had her come upstairs by herself to open her big present, because I knew that the reds would freak out. It was of course her pink Nintendo DS with 3 games. She started crying and she said, "Mommy, you said that you could not get it because it cost too much."
I had bought 3 weeks before....I am like that.
I just can't believe that she is 12. She is growing up way too fast. It does not make me feel older, it makes me feel that I running out of time with her. In 6 years she will be in college...I just want her to stay the way she is: smart, beautiful, and so full of life. I also hope and pray that she is not as bad as I was at the age of 12.

Those BADDD places we know not to go to, but do.

I was on Yahoo, just now. I came across an article about places to eat. This gave a scale of which places were better for you to eat at. I knew that Chik Fil La would be on the top, only because I know that they are the only fast food place that offers sandwiches that are 300 calories or less (and they taste good). So I am leaving a link on here for you all to check it out. The book that is advertised at the end of the article is really quite good for you to keep in the car, especially if you have a hankering for fries, but you are on a diet. The latest in the series comes out soon, and it will deal with kid foods. Yeah!
http://health.yahoo.com/experts/eatthis/11230/americas-bestand-worstrestaurants/
Also...don't freak out at the end of the article. All those date night places that we all love, scored an F. No more Outback for me!